This only solidifies the opinion, that Steve is an idiot, because only an idiot would consider giving this up, on the off chance that other people might figure it out before it inevitably runs itself off a cliff anyway. Only an idiot would think that sounds like a good idea, would think that's sensible, reasonable. Only an idiot would even try.
Or a self-sacrificial dimwit who doesn't think he deserves to have anything good in his life, and, fine. Danny can admit that he may well not be all that great an addition, okay, he's certainly not vain enough to think he's that good of a thing, would be skeptical and wary if Steve said so. He brings baggage and worry with him, a truckload of problems that Steve seriously does not need to be dealing with, these days, and there's not a whole hell of a lot he can do to help Steve with anything going in his head, either.
But Steve wants him here. Steve hasn't shoved him out the door. Steve kissed him that first day, instead of telling him they couldn't, for all the reasons he just listed out on the beach, all the ones that march through Danny's head every now and again, goose-stepping and trailing along a dark twisted cloud of dire consequences.
Steve wants him. Said so. And words might mean shit, but Steve acts like it, too. Runs his fingers up into Danny's hair to curl his hand around Danny's skull, pull him closer, tugs a tiny sound from Danny's chest to break on Steve's lips. And Danny finds it inexpressibly frustrating that Steve doesn't think he should get what he wants.
Because it's more than that. Not just something he thinks. It's not an active thought process. It just is. Something he'll give up, because he should. Because it's the right thing to do. Because under all that crazy and all those years of violence, Steve is the guy who'll do anything to find someone, to fix a broken family, to save the day. He doesn't think about himself. Nobody thinks about Steve, puts him first, or in the picture at all.
So Danny will. And he might not be able to explain Steve wanting him, or Steve wanting this, but since Steve does, that's good enough for him.
Looking back at Steve's slightly dazed expression, feeling a little like his own head has started melting right off his shoulders. Tip of his tongue darting, tasting Steve on his lip. "That your new argument strategy?"
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Date: 2013-05-09 10:04 pm (UTC)This only solidifies the opinion, that Steve is an idiot, because only an idiot would consider giving this up, on the off chance that other people might figure it out before it inevitably runs itself off a cliff anyway. Only an idiot would think that sounds like a good idea, would think that's sensible, reasonable. Only an idiot would even try.
Or a self-sacrificial dimwit who doesn't think he deserves to have anything good in his life, and, fine. Danny can admit that he may well not be all that great an addition, okay, he's certainly not vain enough to think he's that good of a thing, would be skeptical and wary if Steve said so. He brings baggage and worry with him, a truckload of problems that Steve seriously does not need to be dealing with, these days, and there's not a whole hell of a lot he can do to help Steve with anything going in his head, either.
But Steve wants him here. Steve hasn't shoved him out the door. Steve kissed him that first day, instead of telling him they couldn't, for all the reasons he just listed out on the beach, all the ones that march through Danny's head every now and again, goose-stepping and trailing along a dark twisted cloud of dire consequences.
Steve wants him. Said so. And words might mean shit, but Steve acts like it, too. Runs his fingers up into Danny's hair to curl his hand around Danny's skull, pull him closer, tugs a tiny sound from Danny's chest to break on Steve's lips. And Danny finds it inexpressibly frustrating that Steve doesn't think he should get what he wants.
Because it's more than that. Not just something he thinks. It's not an active thought process. It just is. Something he'll give up, because he should. Because it's the right thing to do. Because under all that crazy and all those years of violence, Steve is the guy who'll do anything to find someone, to fix a broken family, to save the day. He doesn't think about himself. Nobody thinks about Steve, puts him first, or in the picture at all.
So Danny will. And he might not be able to explain Steve wanting him, or Steve wanting this, but since Steve does, that's good enough for him.
Looking back at Steve's slightly dazed expression, feeling a little like his own head has started melting right off his shoulders. Tip of his tongue darting, tasting Steve on his lip. "That your new argument strategy?"
If so, he has to admit it's effective.